Something I Thought I'd Never Hear

My Dr. told me yesterday that I am not eating enough sugar.  What?  Really?  Except for three donuts...I know, I know...I haven't had any sugar for three weeks.  Apparently, I cut back too far and have been getting dizzy.  I have to incorporate more fruit into my diet.  Last night I ate some red grapes.  They were so sweet it was almost too much.  Almost.  I guess my sweet buds have gotten sensitive. 

More Than I Wanted

I have been meaning to get back into the gym, but my back has been bothering me.  My doctor referred me to a Physical Therapist.  I'm going three times a week and doing an hour of exercise twice a day.  Well, I wanted to start exercising again.  I was thinking more of the thirty minutes three times a week kind, where I would run on the treadmill.  This is more than I bargained for, but I really need it and if it will help with my pain, then I'm all for it. 

I've lost twelve pounds so far.  On track.

I've started the first draft of my secret project.  All is well.

I did my first motivational book pass-it-on today.  I sent a copy of Awaken the Giant Within by Tony Robbins to a friend of mine.  This book really helped me break free of some destructive habits.  I love the idea of "leverage activities".  If you are going to make a change, make it one that will have a large impact.  Get the most bang for your buck.  Change is very hard for me, so this strategy is key. 

Another day in the books.

Super-Secret Project

I've started to become very superstitious when it comes to my writing.  This comes from analyzing my failed attempts at finishing a book.  My process usually looks something like this:  I get really excited about a project, I get the darned thing outlined, I start writing, and then I start talking about it.  It is this "talking about it" part that I am growing excessively superstitious about.  What happens is that I get so excited about my project, I use up all my creative energy talking, talking, talking.  Then, when I sit down to write...nothing. 

So, I'll say, I'm working on something very exciting.  Possibly life-changing.  But, I'm saving the details for the page.  I have a workable outline.  I am going to have to streamline it, though.  It is non-fiction and that is new for me.  Okay, off to do some research.

photo by Michal Marcol

Three Week Mark

...and I've lost five pounds.  Not setting any records here, but hey slow and steady wins the race, right?

Fight the Crazy

                                                                  photograph by Graur Codrin

I changed my weight loss ticker this morning.  I tell you what...I am my own worst enemy sometimes.  So, I had my weight loss goal as 100 lbs.  Do I need to lose 100 lbs?  No.  It is just a beautiful round number.  If I lost 100 lbs, I would be twenty pounds under weight for my age and height.  AND, I would be setting myself up for failure.  I mean this is goalsethigh, not goalsetimpossible.  I reset my goal for the high end of my healthy weight.  That brings my goal to 59 lbs.  Much more manageable.  Also, if I lose two pounds a week, I will have that licked in thirty weeks.  September 25.  That is four days after my 39th birthday.  Maybe I could crank it up here and there and make it by the 21st.  What a great birthday present!  Pray for me...please.

Large Mammal

photograph by Tom Curtis

That's right.  I've become a large mammal.  I had started to lose weight when I got pregnant.  Actually, the weight loss triggered my dormant fertility.  Blah, blah, blah - big fat mammal.  Anyway, I've decided to train for a 5k.  I am also going to track my weight loss on a little gadget on my blog.  I've now got to choose my race. 

Good Enough

Recently, I've been a martyr in one of my close relationships.  Yes, the person did me wrong.  Yes, I have every right to remove this relationship from my life.  But, I don't have to roll around in that person's wrongness.  The Lord has really convicted me about my high-horseness in this matter.  During this period, have I loved this person the way I should have?  No.  They have let me down.  But, I let them down, too. 

I have a couple of people in my life that are really being troublesome.  Yesterday, I broke down and was crying to God about it.  I was complaining that He gave me these knuckleheads to deal with, but not the strength to deal with them.  He lit up my heart with the fact that I really haven't been bringing these issues to Him.  I have been trying to deal with them myself. 

I do this way too much.  I think that I am supposed to be able to do it all.  Arrogance is what it really is.  I take on too much and don't do any of it really well.  So, back to basics.  I've gotten off track and He is jerking me back on.  Thank the Lord.  It takes so much energy to work against God's plan for my life.  The more I work against it, the more stressed out and I get and the less clear my path is.  I am relaxing into humility right now and realizing I don't have to be all that, all the time.  What a relief!